Tuesday, December 07, 2010

It's hard for me to say and even harder for me to live with,

But I'm glad that you found her. She makes you happy, she melts your heart and you deserve it. Even if I couldn't give it to you like you needed me, I'm happy for you. And it burns for me to say this.. But I hope she saves you, like I wanted to.


  1. Dear Nadira,

    Goodbye inflicts hurt and pain to both sides. Losing of someone dear is hard to accept. It have happen to me once. Believe me my story were more complexs than what you have been through. Many times I have convience myself that I can really make my love happen with this one special girl. We know each other for 9 years yet she refused to admit her feeling towards me.

    She date a guy that she dint even love, and accidently that relationship getting so serious until she cant pull off. She love me, but now stuck with the other guy who really care for her. She may think that she will try to find meaning of love by avoiding me, but there is only hurt, unbearable feeling, senseless emotion, eternal frustration and pain that we both know will never heal.

    Knowing this is what we will facing in coming time, still she wanted to heading this path. I dont agree, but she have put her faith in me many time and no matter how we try, we are always here. We both try everything to get together, but it wasnt fair for her boyfriend. On top of that, both of us wont admit that we love each other to our friends driven by embrassing motion and fear.

    So as i wrote to you now, I think I am ready to let her go, for she deserve better. How i still-very-much love to see her, i know things are currently only favor on my side and it is clearly not fair for her. You must know by now my dilemma. We both want to be together, but they is good heart will be broken if we do so. We refused to admit our love but deep inside we both know what we really want. A part of her has grown in me, together forever we shall be, never apart, maybe in distance, but not in the heart. Just that if I been given chance, I wish I could meet her one last time so I can force her told spell out the truth that she love me not him. But I guess the decision is already undertaken and that this is how it will be.

    So I guess that my roles in her life stop here. I will thanks her very much for every macnificent and amazing time we have share. I will pray that she will be blossom with love that will never wilts.

    Reading your post here make me remind how I letting myself in sorrow and pain by hoping for someone that will be never be mine. Even I don't have any clue about you, my heart was called to write this for you, so you know that there is someone out there who sharing the same pain. How very much our story is different yet we both try to revive from our past.

    There is something I want you to know too. This may sound corny but I will just say it anyway. There's lot of things with which I'm blessed tho's make my life's been both sunny and blue. But of all my blessing this one's is the best. To know someone is heart broken but filled with friends and families. For me, you have a magnificent-kick-ass friends around you. I don't know how it got its start, buy you guys rock!! This its warmth dwells within my heart and I'm glad of it. Now I better stop here as I dont want to be sound like any other guys out there, who will always be saying nice and amazing thing.

    Thanks you and your friends for inspire me!!

    You rock my world!!!

    p/s: And thanks google for me finding this blog. :)

  2. Thank you for posting this, Nero! :)

    I hope you will find your happiness this year because it mustve hurt a lot to go through whatever you had to go thru last time and moving on must be a pain for you.

    Thank you for sharing your story with me :)

    Yess, I have amazing friends in my life and I wouldnt trade them for anything else in the world. My family has been an amazing support system. I would never be here if it wasn't for them. The main reason why I'm okay now.

    I know I'm not alone in this. :)

    You should've left a real link!

    Thank you again Nero :)