Sunday, March 27, 2011


Sorry, I'm gonna complain again.

There are people in my facebook (especially girls) who treat the status as their diary. Yes, I am very much aware that it is YOUR facebook but when we read it at our newsfeed, we become so very much annoyed. I am not kidding.

Don't fucking write about your personal things at your status.. For example

  • I just broke up with my babyboo.
  • Eh ******, aku tak kacau pun boyfriend kau ah betina.
  • Haha fuck i am so fucking drunk that i can't stand still. (Okay, ni melayu tulis)
  • My boyfriend/girlfriend doesn't treat me right..
Seriously? If you want attention from your significant other, send a freaking text to him/her. It would cause you guys a lot less pain. This type of status is more annoying than the "HeY AwuCk BwaT ApeW Tu? EpI SunDae". I'm so annoyed, I'm sorry.

I'm done ranting.

Tell me something I don't know, please?

I've been feeling a bit depressed..

I just want....

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Dear teenagers,

  • it is okay for you to feel lonely at night.
  • it is normal to cry over a boy/girl that do not even notice your existence.
  • it is fine for you to make mistakes, as long as you’ve learned from it.
  • it is completely fine to be single when others are taken.
  • it is okay to feel like you don’t belong, because somewhere along the way.. you will find your place.
  • it is not weird to stay at home on Saturday night while others are out partying.
  • it is normal to get heartbroken by someone you love.
  • it is okay to look back as long as you don’t take a step back.
  • it is completely fine if you prefer to be alone, rather than in a big group.
  • lastly, it is normal to feel lost.

Former Teenager.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Sorry, I'm gonna rant now.

Livita honey has been kicking in at 4 AM when I actually need the 'kick' at 12 AM. And the amount of Livita that I've been drinking... It's just *(@)*#(@).

So anyways, one paper down and a gazillion more to go.

And I'm still waiting for the questions for the previous post. Thank you.

Ask Me Anything

I will be on hiatus until I'm done with my finals so fill this post with any kinds of questions. I will definitely answer them. No sugarcoating anything.

I am very aware that Nero will drill me with his questions

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Letters I'll never send #001

It's not that I do not want to open up with you, I just need you to understand the fact that I've been hurt by the same person so many times.. You just have no idea how scared I am.

Meet the love of my life.. Well, one of them El Oh El.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Send thisss.

  • A - I love you
  • B - I hate you
  • C - I love your blog
  • D - You’re pretty
  • E - You’re friendly
  • F - You do not belong here
  • G - I don’t like you
  • H - Deactivate your Tumblr account
  • I - I’m your secret admirer
  • J - I love the way you express yourself
  • K - You’re too boastful
  • L - I miss you
  • M - Stay humble
  • N - You’re too popular
  • O - You are Tumblr Famous
  • P - Awesome blog
  • Q - I’m in love with you
  • R - You annoy me
  • S - Your own opinion about me.

Gather up some balls courage by not being an anon.

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Mother nature strikes again.

My deepest condolences to those who are affected by the catastrophe that hit Japan. My thoughts and prayers go out to all of you out there.

I can't help but to notice these type of people that I've been seeing at Facebook/Twitter

Situation One

"I guess my Japanese porn star won't be filming for a while/I guess no sushi for me for awhile/Why Ultraman can't save the Japs?"

Seriously guys? They have lost enough lives and for you to make jokes like that is just.. immature. Would you like it if the same thing happens to you? While you are busy trying to survive in a bloody catastrophe, someone out there is making a joke out of it. How thick can your skull be?!

Situation Two

"Now you guys want to pray for God's mercy. Typical beings bla bla bla"

Did you know that none of the Japs actually ask for this to happen? Yes I am very much aware that the world is coming to an end. The apocalypse is near but please guys.. I know some of the people who post statuses about the earthquake are not very religious but hey, at least they are praying for the victims instead of mocking other people! If you are really that pious, you won't even do that at the first place. All of us are praying hard for them, for the safety. The world has gone enough catastrophes due to greed of mankind.

And whatever that's been going on, it doesn't have to do with 2012. When Allah wants to end the world, He will.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Keep your chin up.

I was going through my playlist and stumbled upon this one song.. That pretty much reminded me of the heartache and sleepless nights that I had to go through last December.

You see, I was the girl who does not know when to let go even when the guy treats me like crap. I've been told to move on right after I tell the love of my life (back then) how much I still love him because he's already with someone else. The immensity of the pain that I had to go through was incomprehensible to my friends since they know how fucked up the situation was between me and the boy.

I read back my old posts regarding the boy and how I thought I was being pathetic for writing all those sappy stories. From writing, I gain strength. From strength, I gain my new steps to a better life, without him.

After contemplating for almost a month now.. I have decided to not delete this blog or any of the contents. Or even change the url. I'm gonna leave it the way it is and keep on writing. Some may say it's unnecessary for me to write personal things in here but that's just how it is. I do not want any sympathy from the pain that I go through. The main reason I write these things is to tell you, whatever pain/heartache/life ordeals that you have/are going through, you are not alone. There are people out there who understand how you feel at night, how torn up you get when you see anything that reminds you of the past.

I am not ashamed of my scars, it's made me the person that I am today. And honestly, I'm pretty much proud of it. :) Don't be afraid of your scars or your past, everything happens for a reason and if the person you love can't stay, someone better will.

Thursday, March 03, 2011

You make me wanna die.

UNITEN is generating money, instead of professionals.


Dear you,

Please save yourself from the embarrassment.. You really do not need it from me. You might have heard about me back then but things have changed now. Don't flatter yourself when I reply your text because you just don't mean a thing to me anymore. You might think your texts have some kind of butterfly effect in my tummy.. But no, I am disgusted by it.

My absence around you is/was not for you, please don't let that boost up your idiotic ego. Because baby, I don't give a single fuck about you anymore. :)

Stop spreading news.

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Poker face.

After going through phone bill.

Mama: Eh adik, why have you been using my phone?
Me: Bila pulak, ma?
Mama: You called this one number so many times using my phone.. Kalau sekali dua boleh la tapi ni berkali kali and all of your calls lama pulak tu.
Me: Whaaat? I never use your phone to call my friends.. What's the number?
Mama: It's 013xxxxxxx
Me: That. Is. My. Number. You forgot your child's number?