Friday, August 24, 2012

Shit girls say

After shaving her legs

"Feel how soft my legs are. FEEL IT!"

Before shopping

"I'm not going to buy anything that I don't need"

During shopping

"Oooh! I need that."

"I have a matching top for that!"

"I might use it for certain occasion"

"It's okay, I don't need this."

After shopping

"I shouldn't have bought that"

"Damn it, I should have bought that"

After looking at pictures of skinny girls

"I gotta start eating healthy and jog!"

Few minutes after that

"Cheeseburger would be nice"

Other shit that girls say

"Do I look fat?"

"What should I eat?"

"I miss my cat"

"I'll have the small piece"

"I have so many things to tell you!"

"I'm cold"

"Be honest!"

and the famous

"I'm fine"

Thursday, August 23, 2012

23rd August 2012

H: There's something about you.

Me: What?

H: You're like one of the most friendly person I've met. One minute, I feel like I know you. The next, it feels like you're stranger to me.

Me: May I ask why?

H: You make people believe that they really know you when they actually have no slight idea about you.

Me: I'm sad, sometimes.

H: You still don't like opening up?

Me: Honestly, I thought I didn't but I actually do but the sad thing is, no one bothers to ask because I look happy most of the time. Even the ones who are close to me just don't bother sometimes.


I like to curl into a ball. In this pitch black hole, where no one can find me or even have a slight trace of what I'm feeling.

How's that?

Life confessions

It's crazy, because I don't even know when you became so important to me. It's like watching a snowstorm. You see the flakes falling but you don't realize how they're adding up. Then suddenly, your whole lawn is covered. All these little things have added up and you're my snowstorm.

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Of unresolved feelings.

Today's azan maghrib marks the end of Ramadhan.

This would be my 13th year celebrating Syawal in Kedah instead of both Kedah and Johor. Believe me, I'm still not used to it. I miss Batu Pahat. I remember being happy there because I celebrated Syawal with my family. Well, the complete one. I miss waking up to my dad's voice on the first day of Syawal. I miss fighting with my siblings on who gets to use the shower first. I miss salam raya with both of my parents, instead of just one. I miss everything.

To those of you who have the chance to celebrate with your family; be grateful. Some of us are not that fortunate.

Selamat Hari Raya. Maaf Zahir dan Batin, all the way from Kedah. xx
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Monday, August 13, 2012

Ramadhan Al-Kareem

Pictures from Ihya Ramadhan 1433 @ The Loop, Uniten.

So, so grateful that I had the chance to work with them again. The thing is, it didn't feel like working with your friends. It felt like working with your own family. So blessed.

Saturday, August 11, 2012

You know you're in love when..

Once upon a time, there was a girl who just couldn't stop listening to sad songs. She was a sucker for sad endings, sad songs and everything in between. Let's just say, she loved to destroy herself with sad things.

One day, she met a boy and things just abruptly changed. He gave her this happiness that she can't quite understand. When she sees the boy, she feels like a kid who just stopped an ice cream truck. She feels genuinely happy every time she sees him. The kind of happiness that her friends could tell that she's happy.

Since then, she stopped listening to sad songs.

Friday, August 10, 2012

Summertime sadness.

When it comes to friendship, change is inevitable. It is not something that you can control, it is not something constant. You might be close with your friends when you are in high school but things 'might' change after that. You might stay up on the phone with your friend until dawn but in few years time, you and that friend might not even talk to each other anymore.

You know those friends who you used to have lunch with during break time? In few years time, you might not even be in their friends list anymore. Try to look at the pictures that you took during your final year in your high school, do you even recognize their faces anymore?

Scary isn't it? How things just fall apart.

(I was going to upload pictures of me and my friends during high school and then I realized how depressingly thin I was. Terus I depressed now. LOL)

Sunday, August 05, 2012


I feel disconnected from the world.

Wednesday, August 01, 2012

You're the straw to my berry.

You're like the rain after a hot sunny day.

You're like the smell of a new book.

You're the chill down my spine.

You're the smoke to my high.

You're the rainbow after the rain.

I don't say this often (for god knows why) but you're the reason that I'm happy.